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It does scare me.
And Im speaking specifically about looking up stuff about myself.
It just all feels dangerous.
I just think thats so cool.
Im so honored to be in any way involved or invited to participate in small doses.
There was a role onBlue Mountain High.
When I received that audition I was like, you know what?
I never want to play someones fucking joke.
But thats just me!
In genre, sometimes those lines get blurred and you have some psychosexual narrative.
Well, its not necessarily that I dont wanna play an ingenue.
Id love to be an ingenue.
Id love everybody to think I was like a beautiful doll.
I think in two movies Ive played a girlfriend or somebody who was part of a traditional romantic structure.
It makes me really proud.
Thats like,My original cell is this.I think my original cell is loneliness.
I dont know if that does it for me as much anymore.
Im like, should I really do something not in sci-fi?
But I love sci-fi!
Theres just so many good roles that come out of it, and I dont know.
Should I do something where Im playing someones wife and see what thats like?
I just want to know a bit more.
Play less strong characters maybe?
I love that breaking convention with the roles youve taken so far involves playing a wife.
Thats your crazy experiment.Or just a different jot down of strength!
Like, somebody who looks weak?
Doesnt that amaze you that I genuinely cant find a male gaze in this movie?
I was privy to conversations about me and my costuming and the way I looked.
He was like, I dont want it to be filtered in that way.
I want her to look like a soldier.
I really think we did that.
They are distinctly female without being feminized or going through too many layers of projection.
That felt different from how Im used to seeing male heroes protect women onscreen.
The way Grace comes between her and danger made me think, Oh, yeah.
I always forget his name, cause I dont want to know it.
Why are they fighting in this moment?
If theyre fighting, we need a bigger reason so that we understand what the dynamic is.
So, it wasnt a huge campaign or anything.
Our relationship as it was before we started shooting changed and got a lot more nuanced.
I felt so uncomfortable.
It was very new for me and I just wanted I dont know.
I dont know what I wanted.
I was like, Uggghhh I wish I was doing that!
Then you work for a week and youre like, All right.
Thats my only real concern, is that I believe what Im saying.
Look at her doing that!
She has nothing to do with me, but there she is.
